Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Not My Greatest Day

All I want to do right now is take a hot bath; get into my pajamas and watch T.V. Only there's nothing good even on tonight for me to watch because, you know, I refuse to watch dumb-ole American Idol because of how mean they were to those kids. Anyways...today was not my greatest day as a mom. I'm ready for Chad to be home. I guess I'm not handling it as well as I thought...on account of losing it with the boys tonight at bedtime. I feel that my patience has been running thin ever since last night, and I think that the boys would agree. It's hard to not expect too much out of them. Like last night, when I had to count to 10 and let out several huffy breaths after Colton spilled his just poured bowl of cereal and milk on the kitchen floor that I had just finished moopping. And then, when I had to count to 10 again and let out several more huffy breaths after Colton dropped his little medicine cup with purple medicine in it all over the floor upstairs...not knowing how much of it he had drank. (By the looks of the floor, it had not been much.) Then on account of making a "mad face", as Colton calls it, when I was tucking him in tonight because I found evidence on his good pillow case that he had a nose bleed last night and I didn't know it. There were a few little "aggravations" earlier...like finding Colton stretching his bubble gum from his mouth to the carpet, and Chase punching Colton in the stomach for eating his cereal bar...but the kicker was when I found them scrubbing out their sink with their toothbrushes. They were using toothpaste as cleaner. That's when I lost it. That's when I actually told them to, "COME ON...GROW UP!" Can you believe it? I said to grow up. To a 6 and 4 year old!! That's not fair. That's not even what I want. I love their ages and I am terrified of the day that I look back and wonder where the time went. I don't want to be the person saying to the young mom with toddlers, "Enjoy it now honey, because it goes by so fast...and then you'll wish they were little again." I wish they were little now...and they are.

4 comments:

killerhawk said...

Dont be so hard on yourself mom. Everyone has a bad day.
I think you're great...
because you're good enough,
and smart enough,
and dog gone it...people like you.

chin up

BTW - you know toothpaste is a good cleaner. the sink is probably cleaner than it's ever been.

Ginger said...

yeah i think you're a good mom, too, mindy. and being with 3 kids all by yourself for like 7 or 10 days is enough to make you lose it for a minute or two anyway. think of how many times you have been nice and patient and loving toward them. probably more than you can count, so i'd say you're batting pretty high right now. love, ginger

john and lindsey said...

mindy-
you are a fantastic mom, and your children know that you love them. everybody has days where they feel like they are going to drop their basket. go take that bath and while you are soaking, repeat to yourself:

serenity now ...
serenity now ...
serenity now ...

and call me if you need to talk.
linds

meredith said...

i love your ability to look at yourself and recognize that this wasn't your best day. thanks for your honesty!

it is great to know that other moms go off the deep end as well. I hope you have fun with your family this week and the dazzos next week.